Dear Syakirin,

i know we have been knowing each other since we were even young, but there's a couple of things i would want you to be clear of. when you feel hurt, i hurt too. when you seem lost, i get lost too. so here's the deal.

i understand that you feel very confused right now. i understand that you have no idea for what you are doing or even for what you live for. it's just a lucky thing that all these hadn't mess your results and such. i know you don't feel calm..contented. i know you had a lot of 'fun' but deep inside you're tired. tired of going out, tired of studying, tired of everything. going to a paramore concert, might be the most awesome night of your life but when you wake up the next morning i know you feel something quite not right. you've done a lot of things wrong. and it's good you're changing, trying to change at least now. but i also know you got no burning spirit that keeps you're head focus on the long terms.so whatever. you just need to know that you are STRONG. and you can achieve ANYTHING that you want. cause you are a freaking STAR. and you can sing, dance do whatever paint, and still be proud of it! because you don't give a hell of what other think they don't matter! all that matter is you're not hurting anyone and you are HAPPY.

i know,i feel the same thing too. so wake up!

you wrote 'i don't know what drag me to class everyday..'
and i reply : it's because you are amazing. and you got through all this crap for 19 and 11 months already. so fight it off, with your mind blowing AMAZING skills.;P

love,
xxyourselfxx

you're a strong leopard okai? :)

hi

BOOTS!!

im obsess over boots. O_O i wonder why cant i find these sort of things eh. kat malaysia xde ke?

lau ad mesti mahal GILE kan.haha. but i think i can spare a few *myb up to rm300 for boots.

example of boots im hunting.

please help.if seen please contact 1800imcrazyforboots. ;)

*btw it's kinda blurry coz i had to resize it and bla3..so...clearer view.heres' the link.*

http://pupe.ameba.jp/item/2bj85X145ivW/4UAs3E-NkPhZ/

.:imscaredofenteringMBBS:.

just another post

Just a short one.i want these.i want these.i want 'em. the first one and the third one is only rm28.the middle one is rm30.so im keeping wateve left by my money to buy these.8)

.:i want these. 8|:.

Another day pass by~

yet another day pass by.not just any ordinary day,it's HOLIday.ok?so it's a big deal.when i'll enter cucms for MBBS i wont have these days much.meh.

sometimes busy makes me happy.sometimes too long being busy makes me crazy.

so news2,JPA will only sponsor tuition fees and sara hidup. which will be only rm770 a month.

house rental,rm280. which only leaves with rm490. *if my brain still works this shud be rite*

and this concludes i'll get an additional rm60 from what i usually get in foundy.heh.that's a very3 HUGE amount of MONEY.veryy very BIG.very HUUUUGGGEEEE.meh.

i just love stewie and brian they're funny.:P *oh yea,just started watching family guys so yeah.

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isn't it nice?it's a polaroid of a necklace,*more like a choker* anan bought for me.:) dem expensive.ad ke,tgah2 beli tu ad customer len dtg,pastu da usha2 ckp kat mak dy,'jom bla,kat sni mahal'. then we were like RED ALERT. haha,sian anan. :P

nothing much to tell anywayy.watch coraline. nice movie.really great.i simply love it.my kind of movie i guess.sort of creepy then.

.:SleepTightCoraline:.

Another holiday obsession~

Hi!yes!yet another obsession! it's okay tho as these obsessions usually come and go.:P i really like m poupee girl! but im going to change her hair stail.cause the one im using ...um..kinda reminds me of someone but then again i want just want more.:P so im playing and collecting suteki's and ribbons~;D

isn't she just cute? ;P

Annndddd.....news, i got my results today.alhamdulillah YIN lepas! :D so im going to MBBS this 5th august.wish me lucki lucko~;)

i already bought a few stuff for raya,*you may think it's waaaayyyyyyy early but im kinda lazy to go on Ramadhan.*
and i found these really dem nice shoes! *I WANT ONE*


it's like all lace shoes which is soooo dem CUTE!*shriek!* this is handmade.can you believe that?if that;s handmade i think i can come up something similar to that.:)

i already bought shoes for raya and i LOVE it so mucho muchas!:) not goin to show it here i want it to be a suprise~:)

and for closing, congratulation to *HER for successfully found my stupid full of nothingness blog.:)

WELL DONE.

.:ImDoingSpringCleanMyLife:.

Funny~hihi

i find it funny.why am i addicted suddenly to this weird fashion game? *haha
i found this website and thought it was just a dress up game.so i tried.very dem cute.;) then bcuz it was soooooooooo dem cute,i made an account.
so then i have to search for clothes and find ribbons and stuff. so i played.i at least for what i understand.

IT IS IN JAPANESE! NOT MUCH THAT I UNDERSTAND.

haha.and when i got these girls commenting on my clothes and stuff.it is in japanese.so everytime i get a comment i go google translate it.:P which now i feel stupid everytime i go.haha

newest comment, かわいいです. which stands for pretty, physically attractive; darling, cute; charming.etc,etc,, haha.nice!:)

this girl commented on this onepiece anan bought for me yesterday. <3>

we watch despicable me 3d i sooo recommend it!;)

okay,outta of what im trying to point here.:P but that's about it! so im currently playing this japanese dress up girls and i don't understand a word but i enjoy it never the less.:)
i still dont understand what 'suteki' stands for but it says suteki is when you think something is adorable cute pretty etc!

so suteki's for all!;D

.: これは素晴らしいです！:.

ITproject

Midterm passed away.
but in a 'hell',sorta way.haha.totally i ruined my math test!xD
but still,pray for the best.i gotta make this plac3!

so yea,

as the entry stated this is my IT upcoming poster.*whoa secret reveals earlier dude!*
but hey,nobody comes here *at least those who i concern haha*
i decided to do on alcohol:


so hope you get the message!>D
and the lec wanted me to do something more gory or something nasty so that these alcoholic really doesnt wanna do alcohol anymore but i think thats appropiate *well at least i dont like to see those images* but yea i agree it really does help bring concern but so is this,in a more...less gore and blood way.you know.(-_-)

still i hope the lec approve it coz i sorta work on it in one night.*haha* and i hope i dont exceed whateve limitation coz this is suppose to be a poster to be post up and i really dont the size or anything and hope it doesnt screw up when i print it you know.

ok STOP!

i'll stop talking now i like to talk you know but not really in front of you.alone?well,not relly too,but if..bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla bla.......






.:haveagoodnight:):
.:iluvmyboyfriendxD:.

Fantasy'

Another dream~


Fantasies are just nice.dont you think?

















Stock images.:) only used three.it doesnt look surreal.im too lazy to alter.and the other i used paint brushes.

sctl maths tomorrow.mid professional communication tomorrow.mid mathematical calculus on thurs. i hate people who stress out like,came asking then walk away.i dont like that.its rude.you are rude.i know i dont know anything but at least i tried to help then suddenly..
you think you're so big?well think again.there's always someone bigger than you.even if its not me.and that someone bigger are those who doesnt show rudeness like you!even when his or her intelectual is lower because one thing for sure, his heart is pure.the heart is the light of the soul.NOT the brain.
*idontknowwhatimtalking aboutimgoingtosleep

http://www.amaranthdreams.com/
i love the website.give it a try.:)

.:ImNotSoGoodRightNow:.

Feeling Misty?

yet another obsession with photoshop.:P

but damn this time it was a bit frustrating.:( since i only used the old version of photoshop i cant download the brushes they used and its a real bummer.(im using cs3.*haha.) but still i left out the few bits (okay A LOT) in the tutorial and decided to take my own sense of direction.:P and that resulted me in finishing this in merely two days while people might had done this in 1 hour. *haha

so here it is.:) might been better,the one the tutorial did is so much better.

like it?well i do.:P a bit.but then i think i over did it.again.haha it's a combination of a model, tree roots & trunks, birds and feathers.:)
i learn a bit on using gradient.(dem hard laio!) and a bit on blending. bummer.when i thought i had finished this picture i just realize i didnt blend the roots.haha! too late for that now.:O *yawn

it takes a lot of patient to do this photoshop thingy! (is what im lack of thehheee,:3)

























sooo....these are the bits of the combination.:P they used nude models but...whohooo....i've decided to go with a decent one eh.:P and thats maybe the reason why mine doesnt look realistic enough.but im satisfied.:)

about me: lately i have another ulcer.again.im going home this weekend...anddd....this week's my midsem.:) hope i'll do good.:D and .... im just fine.i love my family, boyfriend and friends! <3 there's this matrix reunion soon (27th jun) and im thinking of joining.

have a sweet evening.:)

.:ihaventsaidawordalldayhaha:.

Currently addicted to photoshop :)

i found this cool site,well..anybody could have found it,btw its so cool it teaches people to use photoshop.*yay*:D
and since i suck really bad at using this tech thing called photoshop i take a chance and try. yes i feel like throwing out my laptop or wateve ravage damage i can do but after a few practice i got a hang of it.:P
im a beginner.a bad one.but teach me more.i love to learn.:)
(++++ i LOVE art.:) )
here's one of my work.:P
it's a combination of paint splatter and chandelier with a model.:)
it's a fashion motif.good for promoting fashion or makeup art anything of such.
maybe the paint's too much thats what i feel,but hey,i did it!:) (a bit.i guess.haha)


















soooo...have a wonderful day!:D

.:MyBoyFriendTreatsMeRightImSoHappyNow:.

Me

Im really not good at writting blogs..haha..

not my fault.

i used to write to express my feelings..but not now anymore...it started around this year..i mean,theres a lot of things to write.even the simplest things i used to write in my diary.and now bigger events but i didnt even write a word. theres this feelings where i just feel,i dont care.i dont wanna think about it anymore.and i guess this is why i often cry late at night now.my feelings all bottle up.but i just ...i dont know.i feel it is really lame and it takes a lot of effort to write my dearie.so now i really have no idea to write about anything.
people usually write about useful things...well...i don't think that's ever going to be me.
or in the time being. maybe not.im the type who prefer to be silent think about whats wrong and right and keep it in my own opinion.nobody really knows what im thinking.but no worries.
i dont think bad about other ppl or critise them or whatever bad.even if im mad about something yes im mad at the person but in the end i just gulp down its my fault.even if its really yours.but i dont wanna held grudge against us.if i dont like you i just stay out of your way and away.thats it.i can be really annoying at times.. but please.i too have feelings.not only you.im human too.


.:iwishmyboyfriendtreatmebetter:.

Something for the girls..:)

Create Fake Magazine Covers with your own picture at MagMyPic.com

HAHA! i dont know wheater that sux or not.sorry y'all!
i really cant tell if the pic goes with the title..:|
jus be glad i didnt take any title like sports, or newS or stuff. hehe
coz that'll be so, wrong.xD

btw, i just hope you guys enjoy whatever stoopid useless bla bla bla things that i do here.

ps: you guys ROCKS !!
<3 and appreciates you guys.:))

xXmiss Me.:)