Tak kesah laa..

seriously after she said 'whats up with youu? you seem all happy and stuff even i can feel the vibe. me likey!:)" i feel like crap.

cause u know why?

cause yes, it is crappy right now. and it seems that im faking it sooo good that i freak myself out. i hate everything still. call me pessimist i am one. i can't seem to forget what i have done and what other people had done toward me. it's not vengeful it's just..hard to forget. *orang kata makan la semut banyak"*

i still can't forget and it bothers me alot. in my dreams, my life, and you? well you. you hide your wall to me? wow you never fail to disappoint me you know, congratulations! (: you were never there when i need you, *okay maybe just once when i cried about boys and you were there watching me do so* . you hurt my feelings a lot but i care for you most.

i didnt even mind when you start hanging out with other people without me cause i was always i was always out with that loser anyway. it didn't matter that i didn't click in with your friends right away but i still love you as always.

but when these things pile up, etc: you never listen to me, you always think you're right, you're not there for me, you hides things from me. it kinda makes me feel what i feel about you isn't what you feel about me. and it's not cool, cause i feel like a 'infiltration' to you're life. and guess what, i rather be not. so i'm just going away.. you know, from you. of course you wouldn't even care cause you never did anyway.

i know i sound like such a sore loser, but my trust has been abuse way too much *not just by you but by whatitseemslike all other people also* that i feel i was left naked. alone. humiliated.

Goodbye. :')

.:Life@21:.